Anyone who listened to me since February knows that I have been dreading May. I originally had 3 meetings almost all back to back. Since then, I had the conference in the middle (the one I volunteered for) removed. I felt guilty…for 5 seconds, until I came back to my senses. This is especially a good thing considering as I write this I’m coughing up a lung from the random funk I caught. I was literally sick from day 2-7 on-site, and though I pushed through, which is great, that just means I’m beat now, which ain’t so great.
Anyway, May was looming and I was freaking. But here’s my glitch-while May is busy, I totally underestimated April.
Ooooohhhhhhhhhhh April.
So I’m into May, the month I was dreading, only to realize that I’m ok b/c I made it through April. 
Moreover, something has changed within me-it’s good and bad-slightly numb perhaps and able to just roll on-site. Perfectly? Not no, but hell no. But still, I can’t totally put my finger on it, but it’s a change. It’s still left to be seen if it’ll be a good or bad thing.
Meanwhile, while I’m still busy I have one meeting down and I simply refuse to not enjoy this summer. Hello-it’s pre wedding and I’m going to enjoy it damn it! Ok, off to rest some more. Could it be that I’m actually coming back to the land of the living??????
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